Friday, January 12, 2007

My Life Sux

Just wanted everyone to know that I was still alive, althought barely it feels like some days.  Not only am I going through an extremely painful and difficult divorce, it has affected my health.  I am having major anxiety and panic attackd and have a bleeding ulcer and am anemic. I am on anti-depressants, anti-anxiety meds, tranquilizers, two antibiotics for the ulcer and have to choke down four pepto bismol tablets a day.  Nice whine, huh?  You guys pray for me, and i promise I will be back.  I haven't read a single journal in probably six weeks, and I miss all you guys.

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh...Ash!!!  I know it feels as if your world is ending..you are so beautiful inside and out..it is so his loss...I know how bad you wanted things to work out...but this is just not meant to be...I know one day I will be reading how you have found someone who knows what love and relationships are all about..I know you are hurting...I got really bad health wise with things with Mark...2001 was when that changed...sure I still have my days...but I will never let him cause me to mentally and physically break down again...I am going to be praying for you every day several times aday!!!!!!  Be sure to eat...and try to get out with a friend or something...I know you don't feel like it...but the sooner you start living the faster you will recover.  Big hugs!!!!! TerryAnn

Anonymous said...

Oh, Ash...I am so sorry you are going through this.  There isn't anything I can say to make it better, but I would just implore that you take care of you first!!  Looks like you are, just hang in there, kiddo!!  Sending prayers your way :)
xoxo ~myra

Anonymous said...

Ash,
{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{bighugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}!!! I am so sorry things are so rough for you right now! I really hope you find what you need to start finding some peace in your life! I miss you and think about you everyday! You should make an appointment to get a massage, or something like that and take a hour or two to just get pampered, I have a feeling it has been to long since you have! If you ever just want to talk please call on me. I am here for you!! Things will get better they have to hun!
Love and hugs,
Robyn

Anonymous said...

i am praying for you Ash. I am so very sorry you are going thru all of this.
LOVE, lisa jo

Anonymous said...

So sorry Ash.  I will send prayers from Texas :) Barbara

Anonymous said...

hey, i was in the exact same shape a year ago. you will make it through. It may not feel like it sometimes, but you will. and you will be better for it.  I know that I am!

tina

Anonymous said...

They say Divorce is a lot like Death and that you should allow yourself a chance to Mourn. I think that may be so. Try to take care of yourself physically (and mentally) and remember that all things pass with time.... Thinking about you! {{{Hugs}}}

Anonymous said...

Oh, honey.. I think about you all the time, and worry about you.  I'm just glad that you pop in, now and then, to let us know that you are doing fairly well.  It will get better sweetie.. it will.  Hang in there, and be tough!  God never closes one door that He does not open another.  Keep your faith, and come and vent whenever you need to.  

Love you, sweetie..
Jackie

Anonymous said...

My dear freind, I am sorry.
Ive been away quite abit. I was hoping the two of you patched things up.
Again, I am sorry.
I do hope some sunshine finds its way into your heart today though.
Remember....
Your a very special person. always.

Anonymous said...

My dear freind, I am sorry.
Ive been away quite abit. I was hoping the two of you patched things up.
Again, I am sorry.
I do hope some sunshine finds its way into your heart today though.
Remember....
Your a very special person. always.

Anonymous said...

Ashlee-I am so sorry for all that you are going thru.  As always I am here if you need anything.  
You are always in my prayers.
(((BIG HUGS)))
Gillie

Anonymous said...

I'm hoping you are doing better...I know things aren't what you planned, I am just hoping that means better days are coming your way.